Abstractions related to Reality is the Shadow of truth and anyonce can say what they will that is why I want Reality.

Abstractions are preached that others are to believe who know not that they know not. I prefer reality and PROOF Absolute. Others told me I must believe what the preacher tells me and that they are people of God but the Reality of life woke me up to the skulls in their catacombic walls of unborn sins hidden away (Muddaththir) from the eyes of the masses and so I persisted toHOLD on to the things that made sense to me on my lower UMMI type mind of child-like ignorance ever present to learn more and not concerned with the mistakes I make on the way.
At regular intervals I felt like abandoning the Search for the Holy Grail but I PERSISTED up the ladder when having crossed over the stream of Jabbok and then the one at Cedron, and I suffered and am still crucified daily for the MOST HOLY Name of God but now I can appreciate Schadenfreude for in the Pain of Parthenogenesis is the DivineJOY of BECOMING what I am when eating my way out the Chrysalis or Womb into this "BW" coitus of BECOMING in Ego Eimi and Nuk Pu NUK of Ani HU as the BIUTTERFLY released from the peristaltic motion of False movement to spread my WINGS on the VEIL and FLY into the sun without the Icharus burning thereof as ONE as in John 17:22.